The concepts for songs always germinate long before I write the first words. There seems to be this settling period in which I don't even truly think about a song so much as I muse around themes and try to find my way through the timeless archetypes that seemingly all songs seem to center around: love, sorrow, grief, journeyes.
So when asked to write a song for a very interesting independant short film script about death and moving on, I sat on the thoughts for months and months. Death has always been difficult for me to form words around, everything I come up with seems trite in the face of oblivion. In the end, it always comes back around to the beginning and from this simple truth came this one line "I didn't know that dying would be so hard". And with that one line, a song flows, line after line, words tumbling after each other to place themselves in this picture of almost despondency but hopefully with some truth as well. Some believe death is release, and it probably is for most. Perhaps though, love, though the most hopeful and beautiful of emotions, is a chain that ties us to another without the physical body with which to manifest it.
Moving On
I didn't know that dying would be so hard
I couldn't know the light would fade away
When I just would not let you go
And now I'm lost to time
Close your eyes, darling
And let me lie with silence
I'd tell you I'll be there when you wake
The truth we know
Morning is gone
I cry in shades of grey
I need to move on
Move on
My yearning heart isn't strong enough
To hold you through the veil
I didn't want for you to live this dead life
Where I am gone but ever presently
My voice, the static loop of echoes
Requiem of fallen leaves
Let me go, release me
That I might know freedom
I'm bound in chains of memory
Forgive of me, this selfish need
To love beyond the dust and bones
I need to move on
Move on
My yearning heart isn't strong enough
To hold you through the veil
I don't deserve your pedestal
Please don't keep me this way
Remember me, but let me fade
The ashes of day
I need to move on
Move on
My yearning heart isn't strong enough
Strong enough
To hold you through the veil
To hold you through the veil.
