The summer has passed so quickly, the golden grasses already giving up their seeds, the thistles cottony fluff aflight. That is when you can see it, with all the rain we have been having lately. It's August, but it feels like September. The days are warm, but with that chill that says, snow is not long to follow. The nights are cool. I feel as if we didn't really even have a summer. Usually I am lying in bed all summer thinking, "could the heat just dissipate, for one flipping evening?!" but this year I haven't thought that even once. Fall comes early I think.
I sung at the Water Valley Celtic Music Festival in June. There I saw a bunch of people I haven't seen in 10 years...maybe more. Musicians...it seems as if everyone I ever knew is a professional musician, has been for years. I am just late coming to it! It's so amazing to see so many people doing what they love. I admire them all for it, for sticking to the lifestyle. See, I come from a different place. I never thought that I would be a musician. I enjoyed it as a teen, it filled a lot of my time and although I didn't know it, it filled a lot of my soul. It wasn't until my first daughter was born that I felt I needed that music back, I needed it, like I needed to breath. It ebbs, it flows, but once it gets in your veins, I guess you can't let go of it.
Next was the Rosedbud, 15 minutes of fame festival. Man, I was so nervous, like I haven't been in years because I decided it was high time I figured out how to accompany myself. A 15 minute set was perfect to try it out. Practicing, practicing, feeling pretty good...playing for every person that happened to come through my front door...feeling good...then the last people I played for just blowing it big time. So, yea, I showed up in Rosebud feeling the clammy hands, pounding heart, shaky leg nervousness that hasn't been there for awhile. I did it though, I did it. Played, sung and got through my songs. I wished that I had taken a moment during to just relax and feel the whole awesome vibe of Rosebud, because everyone there was awesome. I just focused on the piano, and the voice came from somewhere, I just trusted it to be there...surrender into the idea that it would come on its own. I couldn't even tell you what it sounded like. I am pleased.
Summer moves to fall, fall to winter. The circle, it brings me peace. Soon all the leaves will be yellow, and the afternoons filled with golden light. So much to look forward to...so much to do. Soon, there will be new songs up....and I can't wait to share them with the world.